Feelings

It's strange how some photographs capture exactly how you feel. When I saw this one of the gnat catcher, I saw the incredible balance the bird must have to stay on that narrow twig. At first glance he seemed to be quite cocky about it, yet, on closer inspection he looked kind of lost, as if searching to see if anyone would come to share his perch. That's pretty much how I feel right now: a little lost, yet centred in what I want to do after this nightmare is over.

And then there's this photo of the humming birds.
Throughout this ordeal I have been wishing that my mother was here to take care of me. I guess one misses one's parents until the last breath. Sometimes during this cancer adventure one becomes completely vulnerable, and it's difficult to be strong. After all, the very strong also have weak moments. I don't feel very strong, even though everyone around me keeps telling me that I am that.

Looking at this photograph I am reminded of the love and care I have received from my parents in the past and now from my friends, and am pretty convinced that that is what got me through this experience as well as it has, and will continue to sustain me in whatever I still have to face in the future.

These amazing photographs were taken by science writer Paul Muhlrad and I've put up a link to his series so you can enjoy them all.