Bumpy road

It's been an interesting week. It kind of flew by in a flash. Every day my energy level has been improving in the morning, but by 1pm I am usually bushed and the rest of the day is kind of foggy, mostly spent sleeping, watching TV and doing the cross-stitch or forcing myself to finish whatever was not done in the morning.

I've just finished cleaning the aquarium, which should have been done more than a week ago. Poor fish. I just realised that the heater was not on, because I disconnected it for the summer. I completely forgot about it now that the weather is getting colder. No wonder two fish died and the snails looked unhappy! Maybe they were in a sympathetic fog with me, although I doubt it, because since the heat is on they've started to move.

Yes, I like snails. They are graceful creatures with big appetites for plants. Some people meditate on their navels, I meditate on the snails chugging down the purple waffle.

On a more mondane level, I discussed the reality of the cancer with the counsellor and got back my equilibrium. The following day I discussed the side effects of Tamoxifen with my GP, but still haven't been brave enough to start it. I'll pop one as soon as I finished this blog entry - I promised myself.

I don't know what is with change, but I notice that any time something new comes up, I make a big deal out of it. Of course everyone says it's normal, but hey, I am tired of worrying about what comes next. I don't think I was such a worrywart before!