Stress dreams

Well, you can always teach an old dogs new tricks, it seems. I used to have a stress dream peculiar to broadcasters, and that was some variation on the theme of - I go to studio to direct a program and the studio has an unusual geometric shape, with the announcer at one end, the engineer at another, some hundreds of feet dead space separating them, and I am somewhere outside their line of vision trying to figure out: 'How am I going to direct this program?' Or, the announcer is off colour and there's a half minute of dead air. Now don't laugh, this is serious business, and I had these even a few years ago, more than 15 years after I have directed any program!

Well, last night I bid the old nightmare goodbye and replaced it with a new one. The new version went like this: I am writing up a film proposal for funding and the Word software goes nuts and I can't reformat. No matter what I do, I can't reformat. The deadline passes and I am still struggling with the software.

OK, so I am not going to analyse the thing, but I thought it was very interesting that even stress dreams change with cancer therapy.

So, I have made a big decision to take Angela's advice and for the duration of the radiation treatment I am not going to try and do anything constructive or remotely connected with trying to make money, and just be. I wonder what that would be like? No crazy schemes, no grandiose ideas for the future. Just be. Hm........ the treatment starts Monday. 6 weeks or radiation treatment every weekday, and I am just going to BE. Stay tuned.